Happy Friday Readers!There's a saying "whatever is precious to you may be challenged." I think that is so true! All my life my family has been dysfunctional! from drugs, fights, jail, jealousy, you name it we've been through it! I've come to a conclusion that everyone in my family has a defense wall built in front of them, and when anything is said, we tend to shoot out trying to defend ourselves when we aren't being attacked. I must admit, I miss my family! I rarely ever talk to them, I have totally erased myself from their equation, because I feel I am growing more than them, and I want so much more for myself other than just family drama. I have a child that I am trying to raise, and I want better for him, I don't want him to witness the same things that I have witnessed.
At one point I was closer than 2 fat women in the back seat of a pinto with my Grannie. But it seems like the older she gets, the more gossipy she got, and to me (my opinion) it seems like she shows favortism over her grandchildren, and blantly has a huge dislike towards my little sister. So I had to stray away from her in order to maintain a small amount of communication so that we wouldn't completely fall off the map. Which sucks, because who doesn't want to be close with their grannie? so how about I put it out there here .. tell me your dislikes .. and just cut the drama .. maybe we'll get along better if we tellone another our problems instead of calling around the world discussing them to everyone but one another. There you have it .. & I apologize for any mishaps we have stumbled upon.
There comes a time when you have to let go and let God, But everyone needs a family. God didn't put us here to go through life alone, and honestly I hate being alone. So I have stepped off my pedestal .. its a part of growth .. be kind and humble to people you'll never get knocked off your pedestal if you don't climb up one!
Life gets much easier when you realize life's not easy .. let's embrace the challenges we face and make life happen!
finding the missing pieces
~LuvkD43v3r
Hey Neish,
ReplyDeleteIts's Khei again.. I just want to inform you that Life is hard, and no one said it was going to be easy. As we were younger we always stated that we wish we would get older, and move out on our own, well there comes a time in everyone's life that they wish they were younger again ( I know I do), because of how hard life is. But the moral of my comment is for you to make ends meet because tomorrow is not promise. Sometimes you just have to let the negative stay with the negative, and move on to the positive things that you want out of life!
I hope this makes sense...
Yours Truly,
Khei :)
Hey Neisha,
ReplyDeleteGrowing up after my dad died, I felt as though my brother and I were the black sheep of the August family. Things just weren't like they were when he was here. I sometimes blame my mom that we weren't as close to you guys as we had been, but then I think she had to work to take care of us. She was unable to take us on Westmoreland like Daddy did every weekend.
But when I was in need of a place to crash Maw was there with open arms. In the month that I was there with her we became so close. That was the relationship I wanted and yearned for all those years. Now she's gone and she can't see those beautiful babies that came into the world after 12/27/06.
I believe in my heart that as long as you make things different for you and your family now KD can have a better life. We will always be your family but you have your family now, Kevin Sr. & Jr. they are who's is important. Just like the twiins and Brian are who complete me, Lorie and Jeffery are always gonna be my family. But you do have to separate in order to keep drama down in your household. Make things as least dysfunctional than how you grew up. You seem as though you have a good head on your shoulders and KD is lucky to have you as a mom. Keep up the good work and know that I love you.
God is good all the time, all the time God is good.
~MiMi~